'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
 I have loved you all along
 And I miss you
 Been far away for far too long
 I keep dreaming you'll be with me
 and you'll never go
 Stop breathing if
 I don't see you anymore

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The chem SAC actually went ok today. Hopefully, I probably got full marks or something close ;)... Probably not full marks since I always manage to screw something up. Heck, give me primary 1 paper to do I bet I also cannot get full marks. Sian.

After the chem SAC, spent about 1 hour after school trying to work out a stupid chem question followed by a stupid vector question with Emily, before giving up and finding Ms. Kimberley, bothering her, then realizing that it was some stupid thing causing all the confusion. Sigh, you can imagine our faces. Following which, went home, did more vectors up till this point. I can't afford to slack off in spec, I'm struggling just to stay afloat. Especially since I have Uni after school these next two days until the day of the SAC itself... I'm really going to need God's grace this week.

Long day ahead tomorrow, probably get back at like 9+ from uni. Some days I just feel like pon'ing school/the lectures, and then I realize how much that would screw me up in the long term. Oh well. Ok, should go to bed now, people chasing me =P

Farewell.

Connection re-established.

Posted at at 4/30/2007 09:24:00 PM on Monday, April 30, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:

If you see my girl
Just tell her I miss her smile
Tell her I'm counting the minutes
Gonna see her in a little while
I know when she
Holds on to me
She's the one thing that I could never live without
Oh, oh, oh, oh
And tell her I love her

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Arguments with parents are hardly pleasant. I have observed that as my age increases, and proportionately, my capacity to argue a point logically, my parents have been cornered into resorting to increasingly irrational points in order to trump mine. Take today for example. This coming weekend is the church camp. My parents insist on me going for the three day, Friday-to-Sunday event. Unfortunately, as anyone without a vested interest would percieve, Year 12 is an extremely demanding year, and as a result, makes the sacrifice of an entire weekend a rather tedious demand. My mum, being the camp commandant, decided that we all had to show up for the camp regardless. My appeals fell on deaf ears apparently, as no matter how convincing an argument I made (and trust me, it was more than valid), it was blatantly snubbed and countered with a bunch of random words strung together. Not like it mattered, I don't possess any voice in such affairs anyway. It seems substance matters not under this reign, hierarchy and supremacy alone determine the ultimatum. Fscking dystopia. At least thats out of my system.

Not to mention, they even had to impertinence this morning to tell me that I wasn't doing enough studying. I won't dispute that, it really made me think, even if I still felt a little insulted at the same time. But for goodness' sake, at least have a bit of synergy with the demands? So now I have to spend my whole weekend at a church camp at the expense of... I don't even want to think of the consequences. I will attempt to come up with some sort of compromise, since its obvious they aren't about to let me off the hook any time soon. If not... Antisocial homework/study styles at the camp? After all, I'm not doing enough work.

That feels a lot better. My parents aren't evil, perhaps they just don't understand sometimes... One of the hazards of aging, the inheritance of a unidirectional mind. =/

While vacuuming the floor today, the power-head (spinning rotor thing in the vacuum head itself that apparently helps with vacuuming carpets) sucked in a sock that my sister left lying around in the theatre. The spinning mechanism in the head is made of rubber/plastic, and spins at an incredible speed. At first, I grab the sock and vainly try to wrest it from the grasp of the machine, to no avail. By now, an extremely suspicious white smoke could be seen rising from the vacuum cleaner head. After hurriedly running for the power switch and removing the sock, the whole room smelled distinctly of the horrible burning stench of something that should not be burnt. I inhaled quite a few lungfuls while trying to do something about it. Hope I don't get poisoned by some toxic oxide of sulfur or something. Ugh.

Tomorrow is the chem SAC. I seem to have run out of ways to study for it. Careless mistakes are all I'm afraid of now... And in my case, they are a force to be reckoned with. Oh well, I'm glad for the support I've been getting though, and I honestly hope to own this SAC.

So long.

Posted at at 4/29/2007 08:47:00 PM on Sunday, April 29, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:


And if I listen to, the sound of white,
sometimes I hear your smile, and breath your light.
Yeah if I listen to, the sound of white ..
You're my mystery. One mystery. My mystery. One mystery.

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Continuous maths problems can really turn one's brain to mush. Especially if they're specialist problems, and involve vectors. Don't have much of a choice though, spec SAC on Thursday on pure vectors. Ms. Kimberley was even bothered to let us know there would be a vector proof in it. So kind eh? -_-" Tomorrow will therefore be dedicated to chem revision, as my first SAC on Monday will be on equilibrium. Pfft. I hate these "SAC" things.

Next weekend is church camp. It goes from Friday afternoon all the way to Sunday afternoon+. My mum, who just happens to be the coordinator, seems really adamant about everyone going for it. Problem is, I will have, as usual, shitloads of homework/studying to do, which gets a little difficult to tackle, especially in a place where there probably isn't even internet access. Worst of all, I hope they aren't depending on me to do projection for the camp... I don't have the intention of going, but that will inevitably depend on what my parents decide to enforce. Whatever, Your will be done.

Homesickness probably isn't an concept that many are familiar with, in the true sense of the word. Coping with it is even harder. Especially after you have learned to forget, and then life decides to slam it back into your face again. However, I'm not going to forget anymore. I think I noticed something special when life decided to slam it back into my face this time.

More news tomorrow.

Wish upon a shooting star.

Posted at at 4/28/2007 09:02:00 PM on Saturday, April 28, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:


Baby there's no goodbyes
 I'll always be right by your side
 I may be far away
 You know that my heart will stay, with you, always

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It's about time I learned a new piano song. Currently in the self-reflection/trial stages of picking it, but I finally found one that struck a chord and looks promising too. It shall remain confidential for now, until I make "significant" progress in learning it... This is only to keep expectations at bay :P.

More oral presentations today! I got to listen to, and grade, a few of my peer's orals. The interesting thing about orals over here is that you can do it on just about any topic, even in the form of a hands-on demonstration. Like Chris did, on Taekwondo. It really was a good oral Chris! No, I'm not just saying that, I'm blogging it too ;). Very entertaining, a fresh change from the restricted speech-type orals we Singaporeans are used to doing.

Before leaving for youth group today, I got to have lasagna for dinner! It tasted SO good, especially for the amount of effort I put into making it... Just take out of freezer and put in oven :P... Honestly, it's not that different from making it yourself, since they are frozen relatively fresh anyway. Besides, making lasagna yourself is a massive waste of time, anyone who has tried would know >.<.

Damn... Now I'm hungry, and it's 12am. I have a terrible weekend ahead, which I will hopefully get through alive (with life support, of course). I "should" have an early night, but as you all know, that never really happens, now does it?

Later.

Posted at at 4/27/2007 09:47:00 PM on Friday, April 27, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:

If you're alone, I want you to know I'll be back someday
 Don't you ever let go
 Baby, hold tight through the cold lonely night
 Just wait for me till I get home
 When you're on your own
 I want you to know
 I'll be there for you, I could never let go
 I realise that you want me to stay
 But hold on
 I'll be back someday Be back someday, someday.

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School was a waste of time today. I went to school for 3 lessons, which took a total of about 3 hours. I was in school from 8.15am to 5pm. Hooray for spares and timetabling. Why did I bother going...

In fact, chemistry was especially boring today. Mrs. K has spent the last 100 lessons (slight exaggeration) on Le Chatelier's principle. It honestly isn't that hard. So she hands out this lame "forward/backward reaction" worksheet with about 20 questions, which I finish in less than 1 minute, before I proceed to carry on with my own work. 10 minutes later she is still waiting for people to finish doing it so she can go through each question individually in class.

Lucky for me, I happen to have my specialist maths books with me, so I proceed to do some revision, sorely due for the incoming SAC. Mrs. Potassium comes around, and upon seeing me doing my own work, puts on her sickening "I'm so disappointed" voice while telling me off about doing other work in her class. Wtf? Instead of targeting me, why not go bother someone else with your shit who is actually disrupting the class, and therefore causing the dawdling reaction work rate? I bet she would have me rather staring blankly at the fish-tank than do something productive with my time. Am I slow? Am I stupid? Am I "disrupting other people's learning"? Am I wasting time? Am I wasting other people's time? I know there are people in the class who fit all the criteria or more, perhaps she just needs to wake up a bit.

Mrs. EquilibriumConstant isn't a bad person, just a little slow with the intuition at times...? Whatever, I forgive her.

Tomorrow I get to be the audience for some of my classmates' orals. Lol, time to get them back >:D... Haha, just kidding. I'm a lenient marker, I think...? For the one class I was there, the orals seemed very interesting, as the topics were widespread and varied, there's quite a lot to gain from just sitting in. For the people who did a proper oral of course, that is.

The week flew by so rapidly it's almost scary. Didn't I just go to youth a few days ago? Has it really been a week? Well, tomorrow is already Friday again... I don't know whether to be cheerful or horrified at how quickly this year is progressing.

Night.

Posted at at 4/26/2007 09:32:00 PM on Thursday, April 26, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:


If I could fall
 Into the sky
 Do you think time
 Would pass me by
 'Cause you know I'd walk
 A thousand miles
 If I could
Just see you
 If I could
Just hold you
 Tonight

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ANZAC (Australian and New Zealand Army Corps) Day. Many of us, too busy occupied with the mess of what is our life, sparing not a thought for the origins of such an occasion, or any other, for that matter, save that it allows us a brief respite from the droning routines that permeate our lives. Little or no thought is afforded to those who lived, and died, fighting for their country, the reason for which we should be commemorating ANZAC day. Shameful, the adulteration of such an venerable holiday, reduced by us to yet another mere opportunity to escape our responsibilities. I'm one of them.

Today was rather uneventful, I'm just glad for the most part that I managed to, pretty much, finish the homework that I was mercilessly dumped with to eat up my one-day mid-week holiday.

Sadly, the coming week will be extremely stressful, with 3 SACs on the same week. I had hoped to get some studying done in preparation for the incoming boiling point, but as usual, "expectation failed". It's going to be a busy weekend. But isn't it always?

Bye.

WTB more time.

Posted at at 4/25/2007 09:20:00 PM on Wednesday, April 25, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:

Just lay it all down. Put your face into my neck and let it fall out.
I know
I know
I know.
I knew before you got home.
This world you're in now,
It doesn't have to be alone,
I'll get there somehow, 'cos
I know I know I know
When, even springtime feels cold.

But I will learn to breathe this ugliness you see,
So we can both be there and we can both share the dark.
And in our honesty, together we will rise,
Out of our nightminds, and into the light
At the end of the fight.

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Do you remember how you always wanted to be treated like an adult by your parents, wanted them to stop babying you, wanted respect as an equal? Somehow, now that the inevitable has taken place, and I seem to have aged a little more since then, perhaps I got my wish. Perhaps now I regret it. Burdens in the form of family issues, private matters... None of this ever tainted my childhood, a blessing in a sense. Now, when my parents finally deem me worthy, I get to take on the worries and strife they somehow kept to themselves for umpteen years. Reflecting on those childish and immature fancies, I'm glad my parents chose to keep me blissfully ignorant of the cares of their world. Always wished I were older, and after my wish is granted, now I want to go back to how it was. Fickle-mindedness is a curse.

The oral SAC was, to a large extent, a glorified flop. The teacher even saw fit to tell me that my presentation had too much information in it at the end of the class. Noticing the facial expressions of your audience only after you finish your oral is one thing. Noticing that their faces were all blank is another. Damn peer assessment.

At least now I have one day of holiday to catch up on my work. I really can't keep up my current habits at this rate, and time needed to think about changes I should to make is sorely due. Maybe I'll do that tomorrow.

See you tomorrow.

Emotional shock.

Posted at at 4/24/2007 09:22:00 PM on Tuesday, April 24, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I cant help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
Would it be a sin
If I cant help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I cant help falling in love with you

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English Oral SAC tomorrow! Yes, the one I've been preparing for since the first time I did an oral presentation. It will probably be the last one I ever do in school for English, so in that sense, there is a humongous load of pressure on my already broken back.

Few problems. Time limit: 10 minutes. My first speech took about 15 to deliver at standard pace. It has come to the point after several stages of modification that I have stripped my speech to its bare bones (an extremely emotionally stressful process, ripping one's own hard work to shreds), and am still unable to finish before the 10 minute mark. Obviously, there isn't sufficient time to rewrite another half-decent one, so all I can do is pray she overlooks the time constraint. Thanks for the advice from everyone who gave it, you know who you are =), I will try to try my best tomorrow >.<.

Did I forget to mention that I have Uni Biology after school tomorrow too? I still haven't read the lecture notes from the lecture that I missed the week I was away... Too late for that now I guess.

On the plus side, tomorrow is ANZAC Day!(Australian/New Zealand holiday dedicated to the remembrance of soldiers who landed at Gallipoli, Turkey in World War I (and lost)). Well, I know one thing I'm thankful for. The mid-week holiday will be a welcome relief from the daily routine of school, if not the workload (which will undoubtedly be made up for with copious amounts of homework).

At least by then my Oral SAC would have been over. LOL @ those who get to spend it stressing over their SAC! (I'm actually secretly jealous, I wish I had ANZAC Day to polish up my presentation... sigh).

Oh well, good night, and wish me luck ;)

Posted at at 4/23/2007 08:53:00 PM on Monday, April 23, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under: 

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

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Wow, probably for the first time since the creation of this blog, I seem to have finished the bare minimum of homework assigned by my teachers over the weekend. I so bet they went easy on us. This kind of anomaly doesn't happen much. Well, I'll rejoice while I can, tomorrow I really need to rehearse my speech out loud, as I have not tested the length of it to time yet.

Yes, today I went to The Age Career Expo at the Caulfield Racecourse with Greg and Kylie (not pleasant... I felt like I was in the way the whole time >.>). So gay, for some lame reason the train tracks at a certain point along our train route were closed off, so instead of one straight train down, we had to first take a train in that direction, get off and change to a replacement bus which then took us the a point at the end of the repairs for us to continue our journey in another train. Stupid huh?

Other than that, it was like any other ordinary expo, except with different "stalls" representing different Universities, or just shops selling merchandise that would be of interest to VCE students in general. I sat in on some English talk about how to tackle issues (persuasive and analysis pieces). Meh, average. I almost fell asleep during the first guy's speech as well. I blame his monotonous voice, I'm sure it was even enough to make the birds flying outside to fall asleep in mid-air.

What I did come out of it with though, thanks to my inbred kiasu tendencies, was more than 10kg worth of booklets, pamphlets, brochures, guides, study material, cards, etc. Basically, anything free, I took. It felt good to unleash the Singaporean in me again =P. That leaves us with the matter of sorting this multitude of material. I guess I'll "do it tomorrow".

-Puts on enthusiastic tone- To school, to school tomorrow! A fresh start to the week! Woohoo, can't wait to have LESSONS and MORE HOMEWORK again-! -Enthusiastic tone fades abruptly-

*Pants heavily*, wow, I didn't expect it to be THAT draining just to say a few words... Remind me not to try that again.

Onward.

Posted at at 4/22/2007 09:54:00 PM on Sunday, April 22, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under: 

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

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Today disappeared so fast that I didn't even realize that Saturday existed this week. It was all a blur of homework, games (wtf), and wasting time in general.

It seems that my powerpoint presentation and speech for my oral this Tuesday is now complete, at least, content-wise. Still need to rehearse the speech itself, which might actually be too long (ironic, wouldn't it be, after all that effort into it)... Also need to trim the rough edges of both the speech and powerpoint, hope to do that tomorrow.

Oh wait, going to The Age Career Expo tomorrow, I guess that's out of the question... Perhaps I'll leave it to the night then? Oh wait, I forgot about all my other holiday homework from last term... Perhaps I'll leave it to Monday then? Oh wait, I have to finish my Uni Bio stuff for the next day, as well as the homework for this weekend, plus homework from Monday itself... Perhaps I'll leave it to Tuesday then? Oh wait... -_-"

Have you ever wondered why, for reasons unknown to you, that despite conversing and interacting with someone every day through all manner of channels, you fail to comprehend them at a level you consider satisfactory? I suggest that you first reconsider your interactions with the individual in question, and then contemplate the reasons why you do not seem to understand them. Chances are, the relationship between yourself and the individual has for some reason been jeopardized, such that a "normal" friendship with them might be compromised. Food for thought.


Good morning.

Posted at at 4/22/2007 01:01:00 AM on by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
You're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone

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Hello. Today is the commencement of the first weekend since school started. I must say, barely made it through. I really am on the point of collapse from fatigue/stress/(insert excuse here). English oral SAC on Tuesday, really need to get working on that, and since I have only this weekend to START creating the presentation, "screwed" is an appropriate term. Oh, do you remember all the undone holiday homework I mentioned? Its about to come full circle and, in the process, creating for me a rather unpleasant experience.

Me and a few friends decided to start this study group thing after school today. It went relatively well, although it degraded somewhat into a homework session, in our frenzy to eliminate as much homework as possible in any given time. Hey, it could have been worse... At least we managed to get through our spec homework in that time =/. After that I headed to youth group straight from school, that was quite refreshing since I haven't been for a while, miss the praise/worship and preaching =P.

Now all I need to do is obtain the motivation to complete my speech and start on the presentation. It should be arriving soon.

Until I finish my speech and presentation, bye.

Saviour
He can move the mountains
My God is Mighty to save
He is Mighty to save

Posted at at 4/20/2007 11:24:00 PM on Friday, April 20, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:

Zzz writer's block.

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Do pardon any parts of this post that make no sense. Perhaps its the fatigue? I can't wait for the end of the week, so I can waste more time and make more vain attempts at finishing my homework instead of getting my much needed rest.

Parent-teacher meeting night was today. Met all the teachers with mum, except methods, as it seems Ms. Bober had a son graduating today. Thankfully, none of my teachers (all females by the way, >.>) , felt sadistic today, since my mum was actually taking notes for my dad who didn't make it to the night. Wtf... Kiasu more please?

My mum almost picked a fight with Ms. Kimberley, my specialist maths teacher, for giving me a "satisfactory" on my term report. During which I attempted, without much success, to dig a hole through the carpet of Ms. Kimberley's office, into which I could put my face into.

I'm actually detesting the idea of time differences at the moment, makes it so hard sometimes.

Cya, perhaps the weekend will bring me inspiration much long-ed for.

Posted at at 4/19/2007 10:07:00 PM on Thursday, April 19, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:


So far away
 I wish you were here
 Before it's too late, this could all disappear
 Before the doors close
 And it comes to an end
 With you by my side I will fight and defend
 I'll fight and defend
 Yeah, yeah

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It seems everyone got their specialist SAC results today at lunchtime, while I had to go to Melbourne Uni for my prac. Damn it. On second thoughts, do I really want to know what I got for spec? No, I don't.

The prac today was a rat dissection. Quite an experience, as always. I was rather disappointed that no one in my prac session fainted/did something funny, but it was still a rather interesting session to attend. Once you got past the initial queasiness of course. This generally passes after you make the first cut, as it is hardest to begin the procedure while the rat is still whole, it's face almost alive with defiance, its dead eyes staring up at you accusingly. From the moment you pull the bit of furry skin up and make the first incision, followed by cutting the skin up the entire rats body, emotion disappears. You then casually skin it, make more incisions in its flesh and through the connective tissue, lift up its liver, tug out its stomach together with the duodenum (first section of the small intestine), pull more of its digestive tract out, caecum, colon, crap and all, not to mention rip its kidneys out, crack its ribcage open with a scissor, tug more at its heart, lungs and diaphragm. All without feeling a thing. Oh, did I mention the demonstrator pulled the testes out of a male rat to show the male reproductive system more clearly? Ok, maybe I felt something.

Damn it's late. Maintaining this blog through the arduous school week is, without doubt, a tiring job. I will reconsider my options at a later stage, when I have the time to reconsider anything at all. Parent-teacher meetings tomorrow too. I can scarcely contain my glee. -_-"

So long.

Posted at at 4/18/2007 10:18:00 PM on Wednesday, April 18, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:

'Cos I miss your hands I miss your face.
When I get back let's disappear without a trace.

'Cos it's been ten days without you in my reach,
And the only time I've touched you is in my sleep.

But time has changed nothing at all -
You're still the only one that feels like home.

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Today was the first day of school. Boring. Next.

Today was also the day of my execution by mid-semester test. After spending the last of my holidays in a panicked frenzy, attempting to cover the last term of syllabus for Uni Bio. I tried to keep my hopes up as I trudged through the University, and dragged my feet into the computer lab.

The test contained 25 multiple-choice questions and was 40 minutes long. 15 minute mark - first person leaves. I haven't reached the end of the test. 20 minute mark - half the class has left. I'm concentrating very hard on particular questions with sadistically phrased multiple choice answers. 30 minute mark - most of the class is gone. I'm shifting back and forth between questions for which I knew my answers were ambiguous. 40 minute mark - I'm just about the last person in the lab. I try to make sense of the words and letters swimming on the screen in front of me.

I hit the submit button. 18/25. "Second class honours result. Well done." I glance across at the empty console next to mine. "First class honours result. Congratulations." 24/25. Well done my ass. As you probably fathomed, I spent the rest of the time on the way back brooding over the unsatisfactory results, and coupled with my parents' reaction, the essence of which comprised of: "Wtf?! That's shit!", was really quite wounding. I know they only said that in the hope of spurring me forward towards a stronger resolve to study and do well the next time around, but it stung all the same.

However, despite the debilitating circumstances, it is amazing what a little encouragement from someone special can do. Light-hearted, and yet for some reason, extremely comforting to hear. I owe my thanks, I was able to continue with what I needed to do because of it =). Encouragement is something we all like to hear, but know we should give more of. But do we? I know I'm thankful for the people in my life who do.

Good night.

Posted at at 4/17/2007 08:29:00 PM on Tuesday, April 17, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:

I said my confidence
It gets stronger when you're next to me
But we pray from miles away
In quest for what we long to be

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Here we are, the end of the the holidays. Back to 5.30am alarms, uncomfortable uniforms and unspeakable torment that seems to last forever.

I am terribly short of time tonight, as you can probably tell, what with my imminent death staring me in the face (Uni Biology test tomorrow ^^). Having spent this entire day trying, in vain, to cover the multitude of reading material expected to have been read in preparation for this test, which by the way counts for 10% of my final mark, disaster is at hand. I have resorted to skimming through the hundreds of pages of "recommended reading", hoping it will be enough to get me through the test alive, at least.

That is, of course, not to mention the approximately 80% of holiday homework which I was "unable" to complete in time. I can only hope that simply completing the homework which my teachers kindly mentioned would be marked was enough. But is it ever? Last term's work will definitely required, and I can't afford to head into the new term without it.

Oh well, I shall march bravely into the new term, and not look back at... Oh, shit. Never mind, just forget it.

Thanks for joining us for our daily whine. Please tune in next time.

Posted at at 4/16/2007 08:33:00 PM on Monday, April 16, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:

I’m here without you baby, but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby, and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby, but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, it’s only you and me

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Ah, the second last day of the holidays... It was quite an insane rush up until this point to complete at least my speech for the English oral coming up soon. Despite how I was "supposed" to have spent the last three days on it, I have only written 2000 words, a terribly small speech to show for such a long time spent on it. Oh well, it will have to do. I am quite proud of the amount of reading up I ended up doing as a result the nature of this topic though :P. Not really.

Today, I discovered how effective a study technique simply "Pulling the Plug" (pp) can be. It is a very tricky technique to execute, and is definitely not for the faint of heart. It entails the skillful use of your hand, which must be made to manoeuvre behind your computer, locate the socket into which the network cable is connected, and, while squeezing down on the clip, forcefully withdrawing the cable head from inside your computer. No matter how many study tips I try to apply, I have not experienced the rate of success I was afforded the moment I pped at 12.30am. My concentration level heightened to a peak I had not experienced in an incredibly long time, and for the first time since... I have lost track of the last time... I was able to study relatively free of distraction. No MSN. No Google. Almost starvation, in that sense. Yet, the amount of work that I got done in that time amounted to the sum of what I would have achieved in a day. Thank God for wired connections.

Tomorrow will be University Biology study day. I will try not to focus on the entirety of my undone holiday homework from school as I study for this relatively crucial test which will fall on this coming Wednesday Tuesday, after school. Hooray for the University of Melbourne Extension Program. Zzz. Combined with the fact that I missed three key lectures for this test for my trip to Singapore, not to mention having the lecturer blatantly forget to email me the notes (which she promised she would) due to the fact that I would have been absent for those particular lectures, even after more than one subtle reminder to before I left. I forgive her. In her shoes, I would have forgotten that the student existed at all.

Current situation: I have no means to contact my lecturer, and have to resort to emailing another contact at the University to obtain hers, and hopefully I will be able to contact my lecturer, and have her reply with the attached email by Tuesday, so I have at least one night hour to frantically cram the information into my already exploding brain. Yup, shit is the word.

Excuse me while I make the last day of the holidays count.

Posted at at 4/16/2007 12:44:00 AM on by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:

So close, yet so far.

Today, I began to panic. It is obvious that time is running out before the inevitable takes place: the renewal of the school term. My progress towards the goal of beginning the term burden-free is painstaking, and it is plain that at the pace at which I am blazing through my homework, this goal is merely a dream.

I am currently in the process of creating an oral presentation, that will count for a significant amount of my final year mark, which will be due for completion following the first week of my return. While we were given a choice (to some extent) as to what we wanted to do the presentation on, in a moment of foolishness I sealed my fate by deciding to present my oral on cloning. It is only when one actually sets their heart to the arduous task of preparing the presentation and speech, that one realizes the intricacies associated with such broad and ethically complex topics. I'm too kind to bore you with the details. All I will say is, I'm not even halfway through it, and I don't think I've even scratched the surface. Moving on.

Went to church today. They made me do the song projection impromptu, having had someone already prepare the slides. Hey, why not. Servant spirit! Had to show a video too. Except, all the computers the church uses are Macs, all we had was a PC and a .wmv version of the file. Solution: Switch projector adapters, computer positions and amplifier jack. In the space of time it takes for the pastor to reach the pulpit to make announcements. Fun.

We then proceeded to family friends' house for dinner. The beef rendang was superb! Overall rather boring, watched a dumb movie, got some studying done (damn uni bio mid-term test). All of them are excellent pianists though! Quite an experience watching Liszt's pieces, Flight of the bumblebee, and even Chopin's Fantasia Impromptu being played first hand! Never ceases to amaze... A little fuel to keep me interested in playing the piano doesn't hurt either =P.

I just noticed the time. Bye~

Posted at at 4/15/2007 01:20:00 AM on Sunday, April 15, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under: 

Well you are the one the one that lies close to me
Whispers hello I miss you quite terribly
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms
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Went to the State Library today with David, Chao, and Liang, supposedly for debating preparation. The sum of what we accomplished: David and I skimmed through the essay Lachlan (our second speaker) wrote before he thoughtfully absented himself from today's meeting -_-. We spent the rest of our time there walking around, talking, staring in awe at the State Library in general, doing Liang's specialist maths (!) and even playing chess (?!). Yes, a very productive meeting wouldn't you say? The State Library is, however, truly a remarkable piece of architecture, not to mention the magnificent interior design. Breathtaking, every single time.

Well, I have received some feedback about my blog from the small pool of readers it boasts. The primary message, I understood, was that I was hardly recognizable as my blog voice, when compared to my "real" voice. "Different" was the word they used. Well, firstly, what are you comparing my blog voice to? What I say when I speak to you face to face? Have you any proof that what you see is not simply a disposition I put up and as a result not a true representation of myself? Or what I say on msn? Do you assume that is who I really am? In this day and age, can we really say that the way we interact with anything, what we do, what we say, what we feel, is actually a reflection of our true selves? What is the standard for such a measurement to be derived? Identity crisis?

Edit: Removed "stfu" from the end of paragraph. It was universally agreed to have masked the intended impression to readers, and has therefore been done away with after due deliberation. =P

Almost been a week since I left. I sense the distance more than ever this time. Overwhelming though it may be, technology repels the desolation. At least, until the next instance in time. Sound's repetitive, but...

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Good morning all.

Posted at at 4/13/2007 11:32:00 PM on Friday, April 13, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:

Ok, no more lan party. They suddenly felt the urge to change it from 6-11pm instead. Great. Factor all the complications with transport and where I live... No thanks, I'll pass. Noobs. Now I just have to drag my sorry self up to take an hour long train ride to go prepare for a debate that I won't be participating in, followed by an equally long ride home, all in the same afternoon. -Enthusiasm-

Spent about 5 hours straight doing chem today. Stupid teacher made us learn equilibrium by ourselves. She fails to understand that revision is probably the most effective thing to occupy our holiday with, if anything at all, rather than trying to make us self-learn a new topic, which would probably be the last thing on our minds once school reopens. Whereupon she will inevitably be forced to teach us the entire topic again, voiding the vain effort that students put into learning the topic in the first place and making everyone feel stupid. Holidays obviously aren't the best time to force what will probably become pointless rote learning, an idea which teachers either evidently have a problem with grasping, or one that they just refuse to grasp. Yes I'm fscking pissed.

At least that's chem out of the window. /spit. I'm not done yet.

What is the deal with parents and illogical, ridiculous demands?
Cliché as this sounds, I have found this to be true time and time again. I attempt to avoid specific examples in venting my frustration. Some things in this world don't belong in some places, and in many cases this is blatantly obvious to people in general. This is due to the fact that inconvenience follows when two objects without the appropriate synergy are in conflict, generally to the people interacting with these objects. It then follows, as is the case with human nature, that people will start to wonder why it is that they suffer such inconveniences. Is it possible that suffering such inconvenience is unnecessary? Can these objects perhaps be placed in a different way, such that inconvenience is avoided? Is there a way around it? If positive responses to these questions exist, is it not logical that the next fscking step of action to be taken would be the removal of the inconvenience through modification of the elements involved?

Along comes mum. While raving at the top of her lungs, she raucously demands that the objects be returned back to their original position, contrary to reason itself. Wtf. As any other reasoning being would, you ask why, right? Wrong. Bad idea. Her anger flares to ten times of its previous ferocity, while she manages to completely avoid the question in the process. Which begs the question: why the fsck do you persist in your irrational stipulations, when someone has kindly made it very obvious why they are such? She continues gibbering in a frenzied state while trying to make me understand why I must endure the inconvenience for ~non-existent reason~. I still struggle with understanding my parents sometimes. It's clear I still don't comprehend them. Perhaps I never will.

Good night, noobs.

Posted at at 4/12/2007 08:32:00 PM on Thursday, April 12, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:

Woken up by my sister at about 12 noon today. Yes, I know that's late. Hey, I slept past 2am this morning ok, thanks to this blog and David's incessant msn bombardment...! Fine, call me lazy. See if I care.

I discovered a band named hellogoodbye. While their music is nothing special, their song lyrics, well some of them at least, really struck me. Hard.

Not many days left of the holidays, still have ludicrous amounts of homework undone, and yet I still find the time to be distracted from doing it by everything else. For example, I should be writing a stupid Hamlet essay on Ophelia right now.
I just want to say that I think whoever made us do Hamlet in school should go and DIAF. I also think that Ophelia is a fscking noob.

Anyway, the holidays have been pretty fun otherwise. My trip back to Singapore was in many aspects, very meaningful =), met up with some people i hadn't seen for what seemed like an eternity, which was a really heart-warming experience... Already miss you =(

Now I just need to catch up with all the homework which i neglected to do, despite having brought some on the trip, in an attempt to alleviate my guilt. On all counts, I think the fact that I didn't do any only made it worse.

And here I am playing dota. And minesweeper flags on msn. Yeah stfu, I know.

Got debating preparation on Friday, too bad I won't make it for the actual debate, damn uni prac. After that I think there's an overnight lan party. Yay! More distractions~

Should get as much work done as possible before then... Note "should".

I will now proceed to "get as much work done as possible". Cya.

P.S. Fsck food poisoning. I refuse to give up my chocolate!!!

[Exeunt

Posted at at 4/11/2007 04:38:00 PM on Wednesday, April 11, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:

Hello ^^
Welcome to teh new blog, this being the initiating post.

Always believed blogs were lame, never saw the point nor reason for the creation and maintenance of such a website, the sole purpose of which was to broadcast your thoughts to whoever cared to read it.

Why then, you ask, did I create one? Frankly, not a clue. Curiosity perhaps? An abundance of time? (I wish >.>) A sudden urge to share my insights with those bored enough to bother reading this???
Either way, here it is... Whether I'll manage to garner the motivation to maintain this routinely, that is another question altogether :P

Disclaimer: This blog is not subject to any form of moderation by any third party. I will not be held liable for any offense/anger/shock/disbelief/hatred/any other reaction you may experience that may compel you to take offensive action on account of your viewing of any posts made on this blog from this point forward.

That being said, have a good night :)

Posted at at 4/10/2007 11:17:00 PM on Tuesday, April 10, 2007 by Posted by Glen |   | Filed under:
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