Wow, it feels like ages since i've blogged. Well, been pretty active on the study blog I mentioned though, seems that it's become quite a huge success (despite only two people who are actually active on it -.-). Well, ok, a success in terms of that, but perhaps not so much in motivating me to do work.

Well, my English exam is about 2 days away, and you ask why I'm blogging. The truth is, despite my exams being so near, i'm still playing games, perhaps a little more than I should be. Ok, a lot more. But I've made a pledge with David to stop playing games until the end of the exams from tonight forth (excluding the traditional night-before-exams game). Accountability is a big thing.

I actually realised I have quite a huge gap in the middle of my exams, with Chem and a second Spec paper at the tail end. As a result, Chem isn't getting studied. Perhaps a bad idea, but I have more exams coming up closer than it. After the weekend, I have four exams in the space of three days, not a very pleasing thought. However, knowing that English will be out of the way by then is sort of comforting.

Except, English is in (quick check on David's blog) 3 days and 7 hours, and I haven't seen my teacher at all yet about the handful of essays I forced myself to write. Which is why I'm going tomorrow. Despite the waste of that day (I'm prepared that I'll get little or no study done while I'm at school, I've been terrible at studying in school since forever, and everyone reading this blog probably knows that). Seeing Ms. Taylor had seriously better be worth my while. Spending my entire morning and afternoon in school two days before my exam is not a favourable situation at all.

I found recently that I'm hopeless at writing practice essays (oh horrors, could that mean essays in general?!). I haven't written practice essays all year, maybe that's the reason. Maybe I just started sucking at writing essays at the wrong time. Oh well, we shall see what my teacher says. Other teacher didn't even bother replying my email. So committed to your Year 12s I see.

So yeah, I'm determined to get back into studying, no more games. This time I think I can actually do it. Well, I really had better...

Quite possibly my last post before I go into exams. Final year exams, last exams that will actually probably determine my life's direction after this. Turning point of my life? Nervous? Strangely, no. I've thought about this time often, but now there's just this uneasy calm, and all the whirling emotions are hiding under. I don't even dare go near it. Perhaps now is the time to embrace the emotions and allow the exam mood to kick in. I'm a few weeks too late already.

Well, good night. Wish me well.