軋んだ想いを吐き出したいのは
存在の証明が他にないから
掴んだはずの僕の未来は
「尊厳」と「自由」で矛盾してるよ
歪んだ残像を消し去りたいのは
自分の限界をそこに見るから
自意識過剰な僕の窓には
去年のカレンダー、日付がないよ
消してリライトして
くだらない超幻想
忘れられぬ存在感を
起死回生リライトして
意味のない想像も
君を成す原動力全身全霊を
くれよ
Kishin da omoi o hakidashitai no wa
Sonzai no shoumei ga ta ni nai kara
Tsukan da hazu no boku no mirai wa
"songen" to "jiyuu" de nujun shiteru yo
Yugan da zazou o keshi saritai no wa
Jibun no genkai o soko ni miru kara
Jiishiki kajou no boku no mado ni wa
Kyonen no karendaa hidzuke ga nai yo
Keshite riraito shite
Kudaranai chou gensou
Wasurarenu sonzai kan o
Kishikaisei
Riraito shite
Imi no nai mousou mo
Kimi o nasu dendouryoku
Zenshin zenrei o kure yo
Wanting to spew out the jarred thoughts is
Because there’s no other proof of my existence
My future that I should’ve grabbed hold is
Conflicting between “dignity” and “freedom”
Wanting to erase the distorted afterimage is
Because I’ll see my limit there
In the window of the excessively self-conscious me
There are no dates in last year’s calendar
Erase and rewrite
The pointless ultra-fantasy
The unforgettable sense of being
Revive
And rewrite
The meaningless imagination and the driving force that creates you
Give it your whole body and soul
存在の証明が他にないから
掴んだはずの僕の未来は
「尊厳」と「自由」で矛盾してるよ
歪んだ残像を消し去りたいのは
自分の限界をそこに見るから
自意識過剰な僕の窓には
去年のカレンダー、日付がないよ
消してリライトして
くだらない超幻想
忘れられぬ存在感を
起死回生リライトして
意味のない想像も
君を成す原動力全身全霊を
くれよ
Kishin da omoi o hakidashitai no wa
Sonzai no shoumei ga ta ni nai kara
Tsukan da hazu no boku no mirai wa
"songen" to "jiyuu" de nujun shiteru yo
Yugan da zazou o keshi saritai no wa
Jibun no genkai o soko ni miru kara
Jiishiki kajou no boku no mado ni wa
Kyonen no karendaa hidzuke ga nai yo
Keshite riraito shite
Kudaranai chou gensou
Wasurarenu sonzai kan o
Kishikaisei
Riraito shite
Imi no nai mousou mo
Kimi o nasu dendouryoku
Zenshin zenrei o kure yo
Wanting to spew out the jarred thoughts is
Because there’s no other proof of my existence
My future that I should’ve grabbed hold is
Conflicting between “dignity” and “freedom”
Wanting to erase the distorted afterimage is
Because I’ll see my limit there
In the window of the excessively self-conscious me
There are no dates in last year’s calendar
Erase and rewrite
The pointless ultra-fantasy
The unforgettable sense of being
Revive
And rewrite
The meaningless imagination and the driving force that creates you
Give it your whole body and soul
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START Story Arc 2 - NS
Hello everyone! This is the first blog post (of many to come) from over here in Singapore =D. I do apologise for the posting delay, I was sort of all over the place last night, which was when I had actually intended to post. Anyway, a late morning post should do =).
Ok, well the flight here was sort of bad... I took off at about 8pm, landed at Darwin (Yes, Darwin, stupid transit) at about 10-11pm Melb time? May I say, the Darwin airport is superwtfmeh. One of the most meh ones. Maybe the Jakarta airport... But anyway, I actually had to switch planes, so we had to collect the luggage, RE-CHECK IN (2 hour queue, the whole plane (which was full) was queuing to check in =.=). Well, for those who don't know, I was flying on budget (Tiger airways), so the flights were really boring. Sat there playing around with my Rubik's cube (I got a new one before I left :D).
I finally can do the cube properly now ^^, I average about 2 mins, but can go up to above 3 with difficult positions >.<... The whole of the first journey, maybe about 3 hours, that's how I amused myself. Random Indian guy next to me was sleeping the whole way (the flight had a hilarious number of Indians/Malaysians... I thought so, anyway). The second leg of the journey, which was from about 11.30pm Melb time, to about 7.30am (Lame right...), was even worse. I had a book, which I had absolutely no motivation to touch at that point, already rather fatigued and with a mild headache. I proceeded to take out my cube, messed it up, completed it, only to be greeted with shock and awe from the lady and her elderly mum in the next 2 seats... I smiled, and put the cube away for the rest of the flight. Just felt like the right thing to do. I then lapsed into the unsatisfying, incomplete form of sleep which I tend to do on planes (REM? Possibly, but I tend to maintain a higher level of consciousness during this stage... Don't really know what it is). I wake up feeling totally unrefreshed, disorientated, and with a splitting headache. I don't withstand pressure changes very much >.<. Picked up by two of my aunts at 4.30am Singapore time, then headed home. A bowl of noodles later, fast asleep. My cousin was at the Standard Chartered marathon, which it seems Lynette and many other people were also at... 10km and 42km circuits. Shoot me please.
Well, nothing much else really. Just an odd thing I also noticed... When you're travelling, and travelling alone might I add, the girls somehow always look better >.>. No current explanation, too many possible hypotheses, given the variables in consideration, but there you go.
Last night, played 1v1 Dota with my cousin after quite a while... He's improved. A lot. We were about even with wins/losses at the end of it. Sigh, lol. But his exams start next week, which happens to be my last week of freedom, pretty sad huh... Oh well.
So, I'm currently home alone. The house I'm staying in actually belongs to my aunt on my mum's side, and comprises of my aunt, uncle, and two cousins who live here. I'll be sharing the house with them. (By the way! This is actually a house! I know this sounds redundant, but in Singapore it's very rare to actually find landed properties ^^). My aunt and uncle are at work, and I will now separate my cousins into WX (same age as me, childhood buddies =D), and CL Jie (University graduate, currently working =P). Jie is currently on holiday, and WX is in school (poly, actually). So this is where I'm left.
This morning, left with my aunt and WX, who dropped me off at the *nearby* (T.T) stadium, where I attempted to restart my training with regards to running... Terrible. And extremely embarrassing. I got there, started running. Since i've been practicing on a treadmill all this time, damn it's different running under a) Singapore weather conditions, b) adjusting for air resistance (it's actually a lot more significant than you think), c) carrying stuff like my phone/wallet (how else could I get back... Had to bus, not walkable). So there's a bunch of girls sitting around the stadium steps, probably atheletics team for some school -.-, then there's this old man who's running faster than I am, for longer than I am... Then there's this other guy who was so insanely fast... Sighs. I barely made the passing mark, 13 and a half mins for 2.4km. Still stupidly slow. And after that I had the worst headache you would not believe. Probably my bad technique/not cooling down etc etc. I know. Whatever. I seem better now, except for all the cramps, which I'm really hoping will disappear by tomorrow. When I'll have to do this again. Zzzz. Bright future hooo~.
Spent the rest of the time just taking a bus back, walking around the vicinity, getting used to the neighbourhood shops and stuff, making sure I knew how to get to the local LAN cafe =D, the usual etc.
Really have a heap of stuff I have to do, such a travel to CMPB (Central Manpower Board) to submit some documents, open a bank account, meet up with friends... Sadly, I'm just sitting here, no proper arrangements made either. Perhaps I'll be goaded into doing something sometime soon.
Anyway, that's it for now, expect the next post to come sometime soon ^^. To all of you who I spoke to after reaching here, thanks a lot =), you made the transition quite noticeably better =) (not that the transition period is over yet T.T).
Goodmorning afternoon?! Wow...
Hello everyone! This is the first blog post (of many to come) from over here in Singapore =D. I do apologise for the posting delay, I was sort of all over the place last night, which was when I had actually intended to post. Anyway, a late morning post should do =).
Ok, well the flight here was sort of bad... I took off at about 8pm, landed at Darwin (Yes, Darwin, stupid transit) at about 10-11pm Melb time? May I say, the Darwin airport is superwtfmeh. One of the most meh ones. Maybe the Jakarta airport... But anyway, I actually had to switch planes, so we had to collect the luggage, RE-CHECK IN (2 hour queue, the whole plane (which was full) was queuing to check in =.=). Well, for those who don't know, I was flying on budget (Tiger airways), so the flights were really boring. Sat there playing around with my Rubik's cube (I got a new one before I left :D).
I finally can do the cube properly now ^^, I average about 2 mins, but can go up to above 3 with difficult positions >.<... The whole of the first journey, maybe about 3 hours, that's how I amused myself. Random Indian guy next to me was sleeping the whole way (the flight had a hilarious number of Indians/Malaysians... I thought so, anyway). The second leg of the journey, which was from about 11.30pm Melb time, to about 7.30am (Lame right...), was even worse. I had a book, which I had absolutely no motivation to touch at that point, already rather fatigued and with a mild headache. I proceeded to take out my cube, messed it up, completed it, only to be greeted with shock and awe from the lady and her elderly mum in the next 2 seats... I smiled, and put the cube away for the rest of the flight. Just felt like the right thing to do. I then lapsed into the unsatisfying, incomplete form of sleep which I tend to do on planes (REM? Possibly, but I tend to maintain a higher level of consciousness during this stage... Don't really know what it is). I wake up feeling totally unrefreshed, disorientated, and with a splitting headache. I don't withstand pressure changes very much >.<. Picked up by two of my aunts at 4.30am Singapore time, then headed home. A bowl of noodles later, fast asleep. My cousin was at the Standard Chartered marathon, which it seems Lynette and many other people were also at... 10km and 42km circuits. Shoot me please.
Well, nothing much else really. Just an odd thing I also noticed... When you're travelling, and travelling alone might I add, the girls somehow always look better >.>. No current explanation, too many possible hypotheses, given the variables in consideration, but there you go.
Last night, played 1v1 Dota with my cousin after quite a while... He's improved. A lot. We were about even with wins/losses at the end of it. Sigh, lol. But his exams start next week, which happens to be my last week of freedom, pretty sad huh... Oh well.
So, I'm currently home alone. The house I'm staying in actually belongs to my aunt on my mum's side, and comprises of my aunt, uncle, and two cousins who live here. I'll be sharing the house with them. (By the way! This is actually a house! I know this sounds redundant, but in Singapore it's very rare to actually find landed properties ^^). My aunt and uncle are at work, and I will now separate my cousins into WX (same age as me, childhood buddies =D), and CL Jie (University graduate, currently working =P). Jie is currently on holiday, and WX is in school (poly, actually). So this is where I'm left.
This morning, left with my aunt and WX, who dropped me off at the *nearby* (T.T) stadium, where I attempted to restart my training with regards to running... Terrible. And extremely embarrassing. I got there, started running. Since i've been practicing on a treadmill all this time, damn it's different running under a) Singapore weather conditions, b) adjusting for air resistance (it's actually a lot more significant than you think), c) carrying stuff like my phone/wallet (how else could I get back... Had to bus, not walkable). So there's a bunch of girls sitting around the stadium steps, probably atheletics team for some school -.-, then there's this old man who's running faster than I am, for longer than I am... Then there's this other guy who was so insanely fast... Sighs. I barely made the passing mark, 13 and a half mins for 2.4km. Still stupidly slow. And after that I had the worst headache you would not believe. Probably my bad technique/not cooling down etc etc. I know. Whatever. I seem better now, except for all the cramps, which I'm really hoping will disappear by tomorrow. When I'll have to do this again. Zzzz. Bright future hooo~.
Spent the rest of the time just taking a bus back, walking around the vicinity, getting used to the neighbourhood shops and stuff, making sure I knew how to get to the local LAN cafe =D, the usual etc.
Really have a heap of stuff I have to do, such a travel to CMPB (Central Manpower Board) to submit some documents, open a bank account, meet up with friends... Sadly, I'm just sitting here, no proper arrangements made either. Perhaps I'll be goaded into doing something sometime soon.
Anyway, that's it for now, expect the next post to come sometime soon ^^. To all of you who I spoke to after reaching here, thanks a lot =), you made the transition quite noticeably better =) (not that the transition period is over yet T.T).
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