In the nightlife, do you still feel your pain
Or the valor you waited never came?
If you were evil, would you go change the past?
And a faux paux with one last chance.
And I might know of a future
But then you'd still control the past
Only you know if we'll be together
Tonight.
'Cause every night I will save your life
And every night I will be with you
'Cause every night I still lay awake
And I dream of an absolution
'Cause every night I will make it right
And every night I will come to you
But every night it just stays the same
In my dream of an absolution
Or the valor you waited never came?
If you were evil, would you go change the past?
And a faux paux with one last chance.
And I might know of a future
But then you'd still control the past
Only you know if we'll be together
Tonight.
'Cause every night I will save your life
And every night I will be with you
'Cause every night I still lay awake
And I dream of an absolution
'Cause every night I will make it right
And every night I will come to you
But every night it just stays the same
In my dream of an absolution
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I really need to open up with an apology to all my dear readers, due to unforeseen circumstances (Yeah, I fell sick again, on Chinese New Year day itself) (Me falling sick during my book out periods doesn't seem so uncommon anymore does it... Soon I won't be able to pass it off as unforeseen), I was unable to make the promised post during the week.
A few details about what happened to me first... It started off with feeling uneasy on Wednesday, but nothing to be concerned about... Then Thursday morning brought a nasty fever and splitting headache, together with painful body aches. We had to go to various relative's places to visit and eat stuff, ended up sleeping, or attempting to sleep in whatever possible location. I then vomited what seemed like my entire insides out on Thursday evening. You would think I would have felt better after that right? Nope. Thursday night, no sleep at all almost. Woke up every half hour, and the short bursts of sleep weren't really that... It's just really hard to sleep with unnatural body aches plaguing you constantly (believe me the dreams are worse... Until today my subconscious still thinks some of them were real). Doctors were all closed (Yeah, the only time of the year Singapore almost pretty much closes), so I just lay there rotting. Up to this point, where I'm about 4 hours away from going back to camp (I hate it so much when I put it like that), I'm still not completely well, my back and shoulder/neck are still aching. Didn't go to church today, needed the extra rest badly. Hopefully I'll be ok this week in camp.
Ok, back to what happened the past 2 weeks.
Field camp was quite well summarised in the previous post already, so I won't go into that... much. Only one thing I forgot to mention I think... It was possibly the first time I actually poo'd without any proper facility except toilet paper, an entrenching tool (short, crude sort of hoe) and the soil/mud around. Fun.
Ok, the Situational Test which was from Sunday to Tuesday was honestly not as bad as field camp. Basically was a leadership skill test thing out in the field. Went sort of meh. They throw random situations at you and you as a random group of people try to work together to solve it, leaders rotated for each exercise. External instructors monitoring the exercise. The road march was the worst part though, 12km before the camp started, then 4km and 2km during camp days really killed people. I think the point was to tire you out during the test... Something about performing and thinking even while exhausted and stressed. Lamesauce in my opinion.
Anyway, after we got back to camp, it was really quite a relief. Shower, proper bed, made you feel better after living like a slave, literally (not that we weren't slaves anymore... (not that we are(?))). Not that I didn't already appreciate these things before...
David and the others got back from Japan at some point last week, seemed like the trip of a lifetime. Even reading about it already makes me wish I had been there to share in the spirit and moments. Sigh, but for my lot, it might have been so. However, that's probably not the last time any of us will be going on a trip together anywhere, so it's not time to brood yet ^^.
Going back to camp after such a long break is the ultimate drag. Thinking of going back to that life just makes me want to melt into a pool and evaporate... But there's nothing for it, speaking to my parents over the phone really helped to motivate me to keep me going too. Hope they're having a good Chinese New Year over there too, with all the celebrations.
Really not feeling great now, so I'll end it here... Any more thoughts will come in next time I book out... Which should hopefully be next week. Sick of irregular bookouts and confinements. My social life is getting shot up... No chance to catch up with people anymore, stay in touch whatsoever. Sigh. Army life needs a reformat.
Cya.
I really need to open up with an apology to all my dear readers, due to unforeseen circumstances (Yeah, I fell sick again, on Chinese New Year day itself) (Me falling sick during my book out periods doesn't seem so uncommon anymore does it... Soon I won't be able to pass it off as unforeseen), I was unable to make the promised post during the week.
A few details about what happened to me first... It started off with feeling uneasy on Wednesday, but nothing to be concerned about... Then Thursday morning brought a nasty fever and splitting headache, together with painful body aches. We had to go to various relative's places to visit and eat stuff, ended up sleeping, or attempting to sleep in whatever possible location. I then vomited what seemed like my entire insides out on Thursday evening. You would think I would have felt better after that right? Nope. Thursday night, no sleep at all almost. Woke up every half hour, and the short bursts of sleep weren't really that... It's just really hard to sleep with unnatural body aches plaguing you constantly (believe me the dreams are worse... Until today my subconscious still thinks some of them were real). Doctors were all closed (Yeah, the only time of the year Singapore almost pretty much closes), so I just lay there rotting. Up to this point, where I'm about 4 hours away from going back to camp (I hate it so much when I put it like that), I'm still not completely well, my back and shoulder/neck are still aching. Didn't go to church today, needed the extra rest badly. Hopefully I'll be ok this week in camp.
Ok, back to what happened the past 2 weeks.
Field camp was quite well summarised in the previous post already, so I won't go into that... much. Only one thing I forgot to mention I think... It was possibly the first time I actually poo'd without any proper facility except toilet paper, an entrenching tool (short, crude sort of hoe) and the soil/mud around. Fun.
Ok, the Situational Test which was from Sunday to Tuesday was honestly not as bad as field camp. Basically was a leadership skill test thing out in the field. Went sort of meh. They throw random situations at you and you as a random group of people try to work together to solve it, leaders rotated for each exercise. External instructors monitoring the exercise. The road march was the worst part though, 12km before the camp started, then 4km and 2km during camp days really killed people. I think the point was to tire you out during the test... Something about performing and thinking even while exhausted and stressed. Lamesauce in my opinion.
Anyway, after we got back to camp, it was really quite a relief. Shower, proper bed, made you feel better after living like a slave, literally (not that we weren't slaves anymore... (not that we are(?))). Not that I didn't already appreciate these things before...
David and the others got back from Japan at some point last week, seemed like the trip of a lifetime. Even reading about it already makes me wish I had been there to share in the spirit and moments. Sigh, but for my lot, it might have been so. However, that's probably not the last time any of us will be going on a trip together anywhere, so it's not time to brood yet ^^.
Going back to camp after such a long break is the ultimate drag. Thinking of going back to that life just makes me want to melt into a pool and evaporate... But there's nothing for it, speaking to my parents over the phone really helped to motivate me to keep me going too. Hope they're having a good Chinese New Year over there too, with all the celebrations.
Really not feeling great now, so I'll end it here... Any more thoughts will come in next time I book out... Which should hopefully be next week. Sick of irregular bookouts and confinements. My social life is getting shot up... No chance to catch up with people anymore, stay in touch whatsoever. Sigh. Army life needs a reformat.
Cya.
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