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Sigh. You can tell I'm getting overloaded when I miss posting. The general situation goes like this: the pre-patch for WoW: WotLK the expansion has been released. It's addictive. Let's leave it at that. To top it off, the halloween event has just started, and will last for about two weeks, neatly skewering the exam week (with the new achievement system Blizzard implemented, there's now even more incentive to... Do more. Which I have no choice but to resist with everything I have). At the same time, I have an exam on Friday. Which I am totally unprepared for, given what happened earlier today.

There was another Formative Assessment after school, this time on Lower Limbs (the last one was on Upper Limbs). I'm quite sure I would have failed it had those questions been the actual ones on the paper. Which was sort of a shocking wake up call (again). More depressing was the fact that the questions made quite a clear statement about the way we're meant to be studying for this test... And it's not what I'm used to. Perhaps it's once again the lack of it being "fed" to me. There are things that will inevitably come out, that I've never heard uttered from the lecturer's or tutor's lips, and I think that's the most ingratiating thing of all that I have to adjust to. Without having to study and actually "mug" the textbook, I can normally get by through tests and the like, as long as I've heard it mentioned at some point and made notes of it (which I do). The primary problem here is that most questions aren't going to be based on anything mentioned before.

Which is why I actually have to study, "properly" (as it's defined in Singapore), for the first time in a long time. It's mentally draining, boring, but there doesn't seem to be any other way. If I survive this first test, perhaps some room for innovation might appear. Trying in vain to get some sort of study/discussion group going, but almost everyone's just too caught up in their own private mugging to pay any heed. In my opinion, it's the most effective way to study (pooling resources was always a better idea, and even if that only applies to me, I'm sure I'm not the only one who will benefit from it), but... Damn the culture here. But try I shall, I won't be daunted yet.

I realise that I tend to think about things in general when I'm not doing anything. Which, in this day, age, and may I say again, culture, is a rare commodity. I did find that I still tend to though, most particularly on public transport, and probably more when I'm not listening to music (you already begin to see how rare it is). Except now, public transports to anywhere, while not only few and far between, are corrupted by the constant urge not to waste time this close to the exams, and therefore by making vain attempts to read through or study. I don't know why I do it: it's effect is minimal, if noticeable at all. Human Cultural nature?

I shall get back to using time up in tenuous balance I'm currently striking between study/leisure. I flat out refuse to go all out studying (as I would for an exam with, say, much more weighting than this one (worth a maximum of 10%)): probably for all sorts of reasons. Arrogance? Disgust? Unwillingness? Disbelief? Denial? Incapability? Whatever the case, by next post you'll probably know how it went.

'Til then, wish me focus (if you've a care to). I realise many would believe I don't deserve the well-wishes, with the irresponsible attitude and shallow reasoning. Don't worry, none taken.

Bye.

This lecture was brought to you by the letter: "N".