Caught in the undertow being swept downstream

Going against the flow seems like such a dream

Trying to hold your ground when you start to slide

Pressure to compromise comes from every side

Wise up rise up

You can be more than a conqueror, you will never face defeat

You can dare to win by losing all, you can face the heat, dare to

Beat the system

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I really don't have the time to do this post. Really don't know why I'm doing it. Habits die hard I suppose. I'll make it short.

Well, parents and sis arrived last night. Nope, didn't go meet them. We've kept it to sms's, which I find really impressive actually. Even then, they've been so tactful and thoughtful about the whole thing, that I feel almost shameful for all the inefficiency in my studying routine. Sometimes I wonder how worthy I am of all the good intentions and thoughtfulness of people. It might not be based on how worthy I am in the first place, but it still makes one think.

I haven't been as effective at studying as I planned out. While I tend to despise limiting and restricting myself to solid physical allotments of time, I find that subconsciously, when I'm limited with time, I end up forming some pretty impressive schedules and deadlines in my head. And the whole thing's prioritised, grouped, and a host of other factors all taken into account. The one problem is, it's subscious. The fact that it's metaphysical a barrier - I end up falling behind in that amazing schedule/timetable I fashion for myself in my head. It's a shame really, but I really do hate writing this stuff out and sticking it. It's suffocating. 

Well, as a result, I actually cannot afford to take any "breaks" (which get really long after a while... And distracting...) tomorrow, if I even want a shot at finishing what I had hoped to get done before the exam on Monday morning. I really don't know how ready I am, and the uncertainty doesn't help much. Never done a physiology exam before, not quite sure what to expect out of it either. The fact that the anatomy component is sort of incomplete this time around as well, it really doesn't help. Sometimes I think I really need to re-learn the art of trusting God again. Being thrown into a relative comfort zone does have it's negative effects, especially when you realise it's almost anything but that.

After Monday, it'll be non-stop all the way until I get on the plane on Tuesday to Sri Lanka: meeting family, packing up, etc (playing WoW~). And then I won't be back until the Monday after. If I get the chance to post before then (after my exams), well, you'll see it. Otherwise... Well, MSNing me during the brief 24 hour window works =), if I don't start a conversation first =P

I've got to get back to studying. I can't afford to let my sleep cycle get disrupted now: it is, after all, the night before the night before the day of the exams >.>

Wish me well.