Yes! This post is itself a small victory. It may also just be small. But you never know I suppose. I do have a habit of writing terribly long posts... But that might have been a side effect of holding everything in during the week.

Anyway! Lots happened over the weekend, started off with Playhouse on Saturday, a series of drama productions by each of the year levels in our faculty (Medicine), a competition of sorts in itself, and at the same time part of a bigger one. I suppose most of all, it was just for fun and the experience, in which I heard it delivered. A few of us went down on Saturday evening to suppose Feifan and Ben, who were both involved in our Year 1 drama =D. Argh, didn't get to see you guys on the day, but it was great! Michelle brought flowers too, which I thought was really sweet ^^. We got there, waited for like 30 minutes to find that they were 45 minutes behind schedule. So while we only intended to come for the M1 play, ended up watching the M4 one before, then ours, and then finally the M5s. The M4 play was hilarious, as was the M5 one (which also had an incredible amount of impressive props) (they eventually won best play). Our play, unfortunately sandwiched between the two, was a mix of dark and pretty mundane underlying themes, with only scattered jokes but a lot of abstract style. The whole thing had a wonderful film noir touch, with intriguing stage concepts and dynamics, while at the same time . I loved it, but I will admit it felt out of place there. The judges evidently did too.

Our church had their pledge week for the Arise and Build campaign for the proposed new church building... Felt really challenged by God (and not by pressured by everyone else, thankfully (which I was sort of expecting)), especially in this time of breakthrough. The anointing was really strong in that service, glad I made a conscious decision this time to step out in faith, and stuck with it. What pastor was getting at was true though: How can you expect a breakthrough in your life if you don't do something above, beyond, and ultimately different from what you normally do? In the words of Einstein - "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."

Finally watched High School Musical 3 on Monday, with Nick, Michelle, Lynnette, Xuhui, Chin Ee, Runyu and Weiting! Despite all the comments about HSM3 (and HSM) in general, including "cheesy", "childish" etc, I actually really liked it... Ok some parts were a little over the top, but overall the songs were great as usual, the choreography was really nice, and the story was... Fairytale-tale like. It's the sort of movie you watch with your heart, and not your brain imo. Ask me to watch/appreciate such movies 1-2 years ago, and you might have heard another opinion altogether. Don't know what happened somewhere along the line, but suddenly I find myself a sucker for stuff like cheesy fairytale romance and the like. Warm fuzzy feelings, anyone? I also seem to remain strangely immune to vast amounts of cheesiness, able to maintain a reasonable tolerance at what possibly may be lethal levels (inciting curses and groans of agony from the weak (lol)). I actually finished off the first 2 movies in the series last week as well, and they were nice as well... Though not as fun as watching with friends I must say. The songs have this incredible affinity for my brain music buffer. The equilibrium is so imbalanced that some are able to literally displace music with weaker bonds to the elements of the buffer system.

My prac time on Tuesday has gone from 1-3pm to 3-5pm. Sigh. Ended up grabbing lunch (McDonald's breakfast really, which we barely missed, literally between orders) with Mich, Runyu and Feifan, then crashed their prac at 1pm lol. Honestly, no difference anyway. The only one worth crashing is really the 11am one, right after lectures (and people do, in frightening numbers). The other two slots are so empty it hardly matters. I then went back to my room and slept. Yes, slept. I guess I was just too tired out, and I didn't manage to correct my sleep imbalance this weekend, what with all the happenings and hustle. Sleep is underrated, as David put it. I felt so much better at VCF tonight, more awake and alive than I usually am ><. I should sleep more. I actually spent Saturday morning going to the bank at Clementi, sorting out some stuff to do with my PayPal account (which I had to delete (thanks PayPal) after coming to Singapore) and other online/financial stuff. I don't know what possessed me after that, but I found myself walking over to Big Bookshop. The moment I walked in, these clear plastic folder things caught my eye. 30 minutes later, I check out with my arms chock full with giant ring folders, hole punchers, staplers, bookends, basically a whole lot of organisation stuff. I then set about putting my room in order. Something I have not done since I moved in here (cleaning yes, tidying no). Well, not much since I had my own room either. Fine, not much at all. Really don't know what made me do it, but I needed to I suppose. My notes were everywhere, and stuff was just super disorganised. It's not that I can't stand the mess, and I can find pretty much anything I need anyway, so... Anyway, my table at least is looking a lot better than it used to, and my bookshelves full. Tidying up always gave me a good feeling, but it was never good enough to motivate me to put in the effort to get stuff organised (recently at least (by recently I mean last 5 yearsish?)). Well, while there's still much to be done, the fact that I've made a start is... Pretty interesting.

I realised something (this pertains to an issue raised previously). You know those MBTI personality tests, and the four letter personality types? I have no idea anymore what my personality type is. I'm probably the only person who can take the same test like 3 times, and get a different type each time. The time of my life which I did the test seems to have some impact, but then it's a pretty difficult factor to measure. I've probably been assigned like 5 different personality types over the course of taking these tests (ISTJ, ISTP, INTP, INTJ, INFP, to name a few), and each time I do these, I take them very seriously everytime, making sure I try to give the answer which best reflects. But really, some of the questions... "When it comes down to it, life is a) very simple, b) very complicated". Like, what?? To me, I'd say the answer is both. Come on, how would you even answer that (actually, don't answer that. Most people seem ok with these tests...). The first few tests I did gave me ISTJ (as I have mentioned before), but reading the descriptor, it seems inaccurate now, sort of. The most recent one I did gave me INFP, which is almost totally opposite. Even then, in some things... I'm not even sure if that's accurate. People's personalities don't just almost completely change like that. Only one letter's stayed the same. And, in tests that score for percentages and strengths of each letter, only my "I" has ever been consistent, and more recently my "N", but not really either. The rest are just barely tipping over onto either side. Descriptors aren't helping either, they would all be sort of moderately accurate, but never quite there. Maybe getting you guys to do a Johari Window might help. It appears I don't know myself very well at all.

I've been feeling pretty unfit recently. Once again, no explanation. I suppose the feeling of being fit once is coming back to haunt me. I'm not exactly living a very healthy lifestyle at the moment =/. Wonder if I'll do anything about it.

Tutorial with "the Grinch" tomorrow. She isn't that bad a teacher really (note, teacher). Just a bad lecturer. Apparently CA results come out tomorrow too. No emotion.

Cya.

Airway resistance is the resistance of airways.