Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Moments so dear
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Measure - Measure A Year?
In Daylights, In Sunsets
In Midnights, In Cups Of Coffee
In Inches, In Miles
In Laughter, In Strife
In - Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Measure
A Year In The Life?
How About Love?
How About Love?
How About Love?
Measure In Love
Seasons of Love.
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When it comes down to it, I realised I'm a little lost when it comes to the whole new year reflections/resolutions thing. It's... Not for me I guess. However, for probably one of the first times ever, we discussed those very things, seriously, over New Year's dinner. So perhaps I'm not completely lost in doing this post, I realise a lot of the things that came out last night are pretty true.
By the way, dinner last night with my parents at CHIJMES was lovely, albeit a little loud for my taste. Too much of the party atmosphere for me to stomach... But then again, which public place wouldn't be submersed in the throes of racous enjoyment on a night like the 31st of December.
The past year has been so rife with trials and strife (lol rhyme) that I don't even think I can recall some portions of it properly. I attribute it to my strangely convoluted memory access mechanisms in this respect. I don't know how many of you are familiar with the feeling of drastic life changes, but I'll attempt to explain. As an example closer to home, think about the last time when you shifted school or job. Actually, don't bother... I don't think anyone will get this anyway ><. Well what happens with me is when I transition into another stage of life, and out from my previous "life", the memories from that period get catalogued, organised, and filed away together, pushed to the back of my mind. As a result, I have to actively access those memories when required - it isn't in the buffer that contains the instantly accessible memories. Which is why when someone makes a reference to something that happened in another "life", I actually have to incite an active recall and think before I can respond. This is by no means true for everything, of course there are the few memories I can remember from childhood for example that will stay in my RAM (screw it, resorting to computer analogies) forever, but for the most part I'm starting to believe this outlandish theory.
Now, why is all this relevant? In the past two years or so, it feels like I've lived three different lives (I'll include the year before as well, it's one part of it). There was my final year of school in Melbourne, then half a year in the army here, and then half a year in University, Med school. In short, it's been a crazy, segmented, roller-coaster two years, with no time for anything else really. At least finally, this next year should be better, in the sense that I'll actually be settling down again, and no more of the painful adjustments over and over again. On a side note, I think the slew of changes I've had to adapt to has had an impact on my personality too. Looking back, I'm definitely much less inclined to stick to anything fixed or routine. Maybe it's a good thing. Anyway, definitely looking forward to the next year, I'm expecting much =)
Well, as a result of all the stuff this past year, I've grown closer to God as a result too. Sometimes it takes challenges and trials in order for us to truly allow and see God move in our lives. Really thankful for all the times He pulled me together and through whatever it was I needed to do. Looking forward to the next year with even greater expectations and anticipation for what God is going to do in my life. It's been some journey, and it's far from over.
Also, thinking back to the beginning of last year (yes, thinking back is an active effort), I realise I would never have imagined that I'd be where I am today. I'm always used to some degree of predictability, but this time life just decided to twist me around. But the year's definitely been great as a whole, and is still continuing to be into the New Year =). There are some things I would have missed had things not happened this way, and I wouldn't even have known it... So thank you for all the laughter and the fun, the company and friendship, the love and the life. I wouldn't have missed them for the world. And if you're reading this, you were probably a part of it, and if you think it's you, then you still are ; )
I think this year has seen the most growth in the number of MSN contacts I have, ever. But what do you expect I suppose, when you pass through so quickly from one life to the next, it's all you can do to hold on to the shreds before you're whisked away again. And the concept of facebook rises arises again. But maybe I've finally found the reason to start one this new year...
Well, to everyone out there, the old friends and new: welcome to the next level. New years are cool like that, it's like a universal birthday, of sorts.
Happy 2009~.
Cruel Angel Thesis.
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