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The week's just gone by, such that I've even forgotten to post up 'til now. I think my inside's been all spun up and tossed about, so much so that I question how... Objectively... This post will come out. I think my blog needs a new name. 

School's been... Constant. We started Biochem again, the subject that was my bane in the first CA, and is now come back to haunt me. The way Singaporeans study this is appaling. How can they expect us to mass memorise massive amounts of information with little or no context at all? I think that's a major difference between the education system here and in Australia. There, the focus is on understanding, here it just appears to be rote. I think that's one of my problems: I can't just memorise stuff that mean nothing to me, and that I can't place in a larger network of understanding that makes up my brain. I'm just not as good as some of the people here, and frankly I find it quite scary, how people manage it as if it didn't make a difference to them. 

Well, it's been some journey so far. It's felt like a long-travelled road, but then again like it's been no time at all. Sometimes I've given the idea too much thought, other times I never gave enough, but what do you know, before I knew it, here's relationship knocking on my door. Inexperienced as I am (and proud of it), I'm willing to admit that I really don't have any idea. Some say I'm too conservative, others that I'm too liberal, but I suppose, to me at least, I treat this sort of thing seriously. This is, after all, someone elses life one's dealing with, not some toy, some computer, or hell, even oneself. Hence, do excuse me if I revert to my serious mode, because it is only with real considerations that I snap out of my usually uncaring, un-planning self, and really deliberate and mull over situations, at my own pace, in my own time. The philosophy of course being, it's better sometimes to take more time with decisions, and eventually make the right one. Consequently, it also allows for certain issues or discrepancies to be settled beforehand. I wonder at myself sometimes... Despite my randomness and apparent nonchalance, I'm still suddenly shown situations where I can't bring myself to move any faster. My brain just speed-limits it, so more time gets spent turning it over and analysing it, subsconsciously or consciously. What a killjoy. But then, it's for the better eventually. Says the brain. At least this time the brain probably isn't strong enough to do anything more, except slow it down. I believe it got overpowered, quite completely and irrevocably. 

By the way, I highly recommend reading Twilight - Stephenie Meyer, to anyone who hasn't read it. And no, it's not just for tween girls. I actually liked it a lot, and if you bear reading this blog, it's definitely worth your while. Can't say the same for the movie, I haven't seen it, and don't have any immediate intentions to. I've normally read most books before their respective movies suddenly appear in cinemas, but this one caught me by surprise. I blame my sudden lapse in leisure reading, which I'm slowly getting back into. Very few things are better than a good book, combined with the time to read it. 

Plans for the Europe trip are definitely getting underway, it's all quite exciting really. Almost as exciting as my trip back to Melbourne this time around. We're looking at around three weeks in July, spanning Germany, Italy and France mainly. It's just a Western Europe trip, we're backpacking with limited budgets, so... Still, we'll probably get to see and go the places I've wanted to for ages growing up. I've never been to any other part of Europe except the UK, and that was when I was too young anyway. 

City Harvest has a Chinese New Year service on Saturday, instead of Sunday due to reunion dinners and Chinese New Year's Eve. I'm particularly thrilled about this week's service, what with such a significant part of my life teetering on the edge and all. 

Random observation (one of the few I'm capable of making still), when I get close to someone, I inherit their music. Beautifully fresh. 

Byebye.