If I have alarmed you, I didn't try

I'm tongue tied

I've got to be honest, I'm terrified to fly blind

I tried to disarm you I played this part a thousand times

The hunter's the hunted

I'm terrified

I'm open wide

The distance is spanned between you and I

Can I see you tonight?

When the pen in our hands and our best laid plans

Will stand alone on our side

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So long, trying to tell you, but never getting it out, never managing to get it across. But now, hearing it back from you, the effect is odd, irrational even. Why does the room suddenly feel a little colder, a little quieter? Doesn't make any sense, does it. I don't know what's inside that complicated, mess of a matrix that makes up my heart anymore. Confused, desperate, insecure. But the time just isn't right, not now. So thank you, for drawing it. 

Just got to keep giving everything to God. The hardest thing I've ever had to surrender unto Him, but I did, and keep doing it, I will. "Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." (Proverbs 3:5-6, KJV)

Tomorrow is the first day of the NATAS fair, and tickets for the Europe trip have to be settled, once and for all. Meeting up with the other three members of my backpacking group, Xuhui, Lynnette, and Weiting, on-site price assessment, and on the spot booking. Hope nothing goes awry. 

Recess week has been a recess from school, but not much else, even though I can't study. My mind's been speeding, 100 round the bends, and it doesn't stop. I need some tranquiliser... I think you hit me with some.

My blog needs a new name. It's become sadly inapplicable over the course of time. The truth is, this blog's evolved, and I guess I've changed. I'm hardly even capable of being objective enough to be worthy of this name anymore. You've been warned. 

Night.