In flux, the worst state of mind to be in. Neither in nor out, neither right or left. Confusion plaguing every moment, indecision clouding every choice. Sometimes, the most terrible torment exists in the form of dilemmas. Even beyond these impossible choices sometimes lies the overshadowing dread of knowing that, whichever choice you eventually make, failure is the only outcome, and success is highly improbable. That, my friends, is dystopia. And the only way to live within such fiendishly defined parameters is to dwell in the void that lies between, running, hiding, dodging anything which might push you to death on either front. Then again, is such a life of indignity and mortification one worth living at all? Wallowing for an eternity in the unfulfilling void that is inaction... Perhaps the best course of action would simply be to throw yourself at both fronts simultaneously, risk being torn apart by the very fragments of your mind. At least you would know you ceased in a hopeless attempt to succeed, if that is any consolation in the resulting breakdown.

Cruel jokes are life's forte. They've been for the past several weeks. It starts with one, and then cascades worse than an avalanche. No, I will not elaborate. (Cue: Thank God now).

The English SAC is going terribly wrong, I am now left with 1/4 of time to finish over 1/3 of the SAC analysis piece (trust me, it's a lot worse than it sounds). My analysis isn't exactly up to year 7 standard either. Oh well, didn't expect to do so well this time around anyway.

Specialist SAC tomorrow, yet I'm up this late. I think everyone's just too exhausted to concentrate on revision. Let's hope we don't regret it. But knowing Ms. Kimberley, that's precisely what she's good at.

I just realised what a pain it is to rip DVDs into avi format. I had to install 5 applications just to do it. The whole process also takes about 4 hours. Per DVD. Sorry Emily, 1 more day please >.<

Everyone seems to be falling sick now, hello winter... Poor guys, you all look so sad and downcast I can't help but pity you all =(... But I already had my bug this year, at a worse period too. Now I just get to experience the aftereffects like extreme levels of dehydration (the skin around my lips is all swollen, red and cracked). Highly unpleasant. Those of you who don't have to live with winter, please count yourselves lucky. You have no idea how difficult it is to force yourself to drink water when you don't feel thirsty at all (because if you don't you eventually pass out from dehydration or something). Well, for me at least.

I had a mountain of things to blog about, but at almost 1am now (yeah, I opened a new post with the intention to blog, but some things take precedence by default) I think I will leave them off for another day. Not like I can remember half the things I want to write about anyway. Note to self: carry pen and paper around to help remember things I want to blog about. Oh wait, that note is on the blog too... -.-"

Good night.

Just give me a sign.