The debate today was lame and stupid. And I screwed it up, as expected. Somehow we won though, on the stupidest topic I have ever debated. Lachlan and David did it for us I think. My mum is a professional when it comes to making someone feel nervous. You know all the rules you try to stick to not to make someone feel nervous while you're in a small audience? Now take the opposite of that, and that's what my mum does. Terrifyingly well.

She comes late, misses my speech but ends up poking in through the windows instead. That just made me lose focus, made me so nervous. I think I got the lowest score ever for any debate today. I can't recall a time when I delivered a worse presented argument either.

Why do people insist on doing things that involve their own personal gain or pleasure, obtained at the expense of another's? OK, fine, the world is like that, and selfishness is not exactly a rare occurrence either. But from your PARENTS? I made it very clear that my mum's presence would only result in destructive effects towards my presentation. However, despite this, even after today as proof, she is still adamant about attending any future debates, blatantly ignoring any form of protest. What reason has she to attend, other than her own self-gratification/whatever the **** else. It's obviously not supporting me, if that's the excuse.

We can then conclude that since she insists on showing up to every debate, and her presence has a negative impact on my performance (which she is aware of), that she shows no remorse nor consideration for me, but rather is more interested in fulfilling her own agenda, even if it means sacrificing mine to whatever extent.

I know. Go away! I need help >.<>